One of the most important young people in my life. People may say he looks to tired but I see a young man who has had a rough start in life. I just pray the rest of his life goes smoothly. One constant thing he knows is his aunt Kimmie loves him and his siblings always and forever.... So hard to believe he will be 14 in March!!!!!

My anxiety disorder

ItI really hurts me that my parents think I have the ability to turn this on and off. I can't. This is something I do not plan it happens at times. I do have Xanax but in all honesty just take one doesn't work I have to take 2... Today I was walking from my bedroom to my living room and it felt like someone pushed me hard in the chest I'm like wtf was that!!!! So it made me have an anxiety

I'll be alright....

People +Facebook = Ridiculous

I don't know what's gotten into people on Facebook. You can not express your feelings or opinions on certain topics no matter what it be people go ape shit and wish ppl would die. No this didn't happen to me personally but to a long time friend who was only expressing his opinion on some political issues and was getting hate messages and even was told that he and his family should just die. What the hell is that!!! First of all MY FRIEND doesn't need to explain or justify himself to me or anyone else for that matter. If i was my friend he should of reported the death comment to the FB ppl that's nothing to take lightly.. I just let my friend to vent if he needs to do so.. Who am i to tell someone what to say or how to say it. That's just not me. Its his page let him vent he's not hurting anyone by doing it lol.


Well found out on Facebook my i thought was still BFF is engaged. Ya feelings are hurt by the way i found out but you know its nothing to be sad over well it is what it is i guess..

Happy New Year!

Christmas has come and went. I had a pretty good holiday can't really complain :) I really cant wait for 2013. I am so hyped for it to come. So i am hoping the next 11 months fly by. I sooo have huge life changing plans for 2013. I am just smiling just thinking about it :) Well I hope who ever reads this has a great new yr..

Xmas Decorations

Bear killed in Montague

Hello

I know i been really bad about keeping you up with my soooo exciting fabulous life lol. Well lets jump to where i am at right now in life. Went last week and had blood work done and a gallbladder testing.. Well Dr Beckham called and wanted to see me. So i go to see him and he tells me i have 0 function in my gallbladder and since im in no serious pain i do ache but i can handle it as of right now.. he said there's no need to run to a surgeon just yet.. And that night my primary doc called and told me my cholesterol is alil high.. So now im on a flushing vitamin called niacin it flushes the toxic out of your blood and builds up your good cholesterol just lovely huh? Wait there's more yesterday i got home from wallmart and had a voice msg stating at the end of this month i will be losing my medicaid because of me switching from social security disability to social security disability benefits.. And people wonder why i have anxiety hmmmm.. So tomorrow i am going to apply for medicaid on my own this should be interesting


STAY TUNE FOR MORE!!!!

Been Awhile Huh?

I know its been awhile. I been busy with dealing with health issues. I had an egd on Friday and the only thing Dr Beckman found was a small hernia. He also took a biopsy of my stomach. Well his office called today and said the biopsy was normal. I still thought i had an ulcer. Well yesterday was a good day me and the folks spent the day in Middletown. We went to Ihop i didnt do too good eating i get full VERY FAST. So we left there and went to the verizon wireless store and spent 3 hrs in there mom and dad bought new cellphones. After that we we went to sams club and then we went out for lunch. I ate pretty good at the chinese place. I still have this fluttery feeling in my chest and it makes my chest feel heavy. Everyone thinks its my nerves. So After thanksgiving I am going to call dr autotte and tell her to put me on xanax or prozac. I am also having a problem with being left alone all day. I dont know whats going on with me sometimes i feel like i am losing my grip of reality. I mainly keep my feelings and concern only to those in the house i just dont want to bother anyone with my problems. I honestly think my grandfather really thought i had cancer. I told him that the biopsy was normal so he said sooo its not cancer? I was shocked that he thought that and i said nope and you can hear him take a sigh of relief.. I am almost done with xmas shopping me and johnny are the only 2 left. I even got my cats something lol. I also bought xmas cards i will be making them out soon. I am putting up my elvis tree on thanksgiving counting on alora to help me.. I hope she does.. Bo is staring at me he must want a cookie. Well I gotta go tomorrow i go for my ultrasound of my gallbladder please pray theres nothing wrong there.. FIngers crossed XXXX

Sara Evans - A Little Bit Stronger

All I can say is I've tried it's unsuccessful so I'm leaving....��

YAAAAAAY POWERS ON

ONLY TOOK EM A WEEK TO TURN IT ON

Power Outage

Well power has been out since 10/29. We enter day 6.. They said that last night as well...  Thank god we got the generator so we do have power because of  that...

Long Overdue

I know i been really bad about keeping this updated.. I been having bad indigestion as of late so my  mom kept telling me she thinks i have a hiatal hernia so i went and looked it up and the symptoms and sure enough i have them all. I still have to call my doctor and see what she says. I hate doctors ive seen my fair share in my lifetime.. I been eating less which is helping.. I been taken prilosec every morning which helps alot...

Shakes my head

Nothing's changed thought it had but I guess I was wrong.., just gotta keep on gettin on. Life goes on..,,

Sunday Night

Helloooooo Wooooorld!!!

Another quiet Sunday night just me sitting here on my bed blogging via my iPad. I am in. The middle of washing my my bed linens and watching Real housewives of NJ. I know it's not worthy of watching but it's entertaining. I went out earlier with my mom we went to Kmart. I got 4 Christmas DVDs for 2.99 a piece. Mom also got 4. Then we went to Fashion Bug mom bought a coat nope I didn't buy anything. Then we went to ShopRite that was a mad house... We just hung out here today. We are both coming down with Alora's cold.... Well I'm going to go so byeee

God Bless

Hello

Whoa this day just dragged on. No one seems to be around which is no biggie. I had my stove running but now it's too warm so I'm shutting it off.. Last night went to Walmart and burger king for dinner. Life is about change sometimes you just gotta roll with the punches... I keep to myself anymore.. I just think its better to just be me and not what people want me to be.. I had this one friend who I asked to come visit me and all I would get is excuses but then this so called friend would go n visit someone else. So I decided that's it I'm done so I avoid this person at all cost.... I'm just wanna be happy

Update on Mom

Mom is making great progress. Her knee is doing great. She is now allowed to drive. And she is off of all her medication. She still has physical therapy 3x a week..

Well it's been 2 months has passed. My life is getting back to a daily routine. The hurt is getting less each passing day. Maybe it was just meant to be this way. Life is strange isnt it? It makes changes every day. I would of never guessed this would of been one. Oh well.... IT IS WHAT IT IS

Happy Early Birthday To Me

Well mom anf I left early she had to go for her pre-opt stuff for her surgery on 8/29. So after we did that we went to the mall. Mom treated me to a manicure and they look FAB!!! After there we went to Red Lobster.I had crab meat alfredo. This is the first birthday without My buddy Rich. It definately feels weird he usually makes a big deal. Why did i have to start a fight wth him ? :(  Well going to try to make the best out of my special day :) Love ya Mom n Dad <3

It is sad if a friend has left you, you find something missing. Don't you? There is a solution for every grief in the world but for some grief the only solution is to share and to express. If you cannot express.

I can't do anything about the people who don't like me....I can only think about the people who like me

He hates me :-(

He hates me :-(

Coolest Lay-out Ever

I am just thrilled over the new page please leave comments tell  me what you think...

Here is your Today's Leo Horoscope

It's time to let go of whatever you've been worrying about. Why spend all that time obsessing over a little thing? Do yourself a favor. Bring it up, and talk it out.

Thanking God

Sometimes my soul looks back and wonders how I got over! Thanking God this AM for all He's done for me! I am blessed to have the lord by myside during this tough time telling me you can do this there's no going back only forward..